Saturday, January 3, 2009
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
well...it's july 3rd, and I just sold my truck 2 days ago, supposed to deliver it today, and I have a load on the deck as we speak.
It seems ass backwards, to be selling it. I just got it working well, and have begun to make some pretty good money with it, now the bugs are worked out. BUT....it is going to pay for my trip to sudan, new glasses, new teeth, and if I don't sell it, I will just end up working instead of doing what I am supposed to be doing. Thats helping out in Sudan.
And of course, NOW a REAL truck is available at the right price, just a mile away. It is so tempting to just flip this truck, and buy the freightliner, and go trucking, and make some real money. Once again, I will be working instead of doing what I know I should be doing.
If God wants me trucking, it will fall into place when I get back from Sudan. When I step back and look at the big picture, I see that it's my selfish desires, and a control issue, for me to even entertain the thought of trucking again. Thats me doing the thinking, the way I always have.
THE SUDAN THING HAS BEEN A LEAP OF FAITH< BUT THEN AGAIN< I realize that God is in control of that, and that means I may not want it, or even if I do, its what I need. And others apparently need it too. My eternal internals need it the moast.
So I am going to get my tools sent tto Cal, along with the money for the ticket thhere, and God will have to supply some way to feed myself in the meantime.
It seems ass backwards, to be selling it. I just got it working well, and have begun to make some pretty good money with it, now the bugs are worked out. BUT....it is going to pay for my trip to sudan, new glasses, new teeth, and if I don't sell it, I will just end up working instead of doing what I am supposed to be doing. Thats helping out in Sudan.
And of course, NOW a REAL truck is available at the right price, just a mile away. It is so tempting to just flip this truck, and buy the freightliner, and go trucking, and make some real money. Once again, I will be working instead of doing what I know I should be doing.
If God wants me trucking, it will fall into place when I get back from Sudan. When I step back and look at the big picture, I see that it's my selfish desires, and a control issue, for me to even entertain the thought of trucking again. Thats me doing the thinking, the way I always have.
THE SUDAN THING HAS BEEN A LEAP OF FAITH< BUT THEN AGAIN< I realize that God is in control of that, and that means I may not want it, or even if I do, its what I need. And others apparently need it too. My eternal internals need it the moast.
So I am going to get my tools sent tto Cal, along with the money for the ticket thhere, and God will have to supply some way to feed myself in the meantime.
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